Existentialism on Prom Night

I've sat through the past two English classes learning and discussing the ideas of Existentialism, and forming my own opinions on the subject. I'm glad I finally get the opportunity to voice my opinion on it in a non-confrontational way. Multiple times Mr. Mullins has asked us questions about Existentialism and "selfishness" not based on the ideals and morals that religions explicitly say or spell out for us. I have felt uncomfortable with the topic for this reason: Christianity is not just my religion, it is my faith and what everyday from here on  out in my life will be centered on. It is impossible for me to think through Existentialism without also keeping God in mind and His role in these ideas. One of the main points of Existentialism is the idea that we have no purpose until we figure it out ourselves simply by experiencing life. I know there are many people out there in the world that don't even believe God exists, but I don't understand how one can lay their head down at night and think they have no purpose. I am far from a perfect person, but I wake up everyday knowing that my purpose in life is to live as Christ did, and to spread God's Word to others. God created me for something. This is one way in which Existentialism clashes with Christianity. Another source I found defines Existentialism like this "On the testimony and evidence of existence, life is patently chaotic, incoherent, meaningless, and hence absurd; consequently, the only responsible and honest intellectual and emotional response is to turn to the  imperatives of the human spirit, to assert the freedom and autonomy of the self in order to impose meaningful  form on the chaotic flux of existence." (Clifford Edwards) I find it hard to agree with someone when they call my life meaningless. Jesus the Son of God died on the cross so that I may have a chance to have a life in Christ. Now I find it hard to believe God would send His son to die for a bunch of humans' whose lives are meaningless.  I think the whole idea of Existentialism makes us only think about ourselves. It makes us consider ourselves above others, and figure out who we are before we can help or acknowledge anyone else's importance. Unfortunately, I can't sit back and tell everyone reading this blog that Existentialism is a wrong concept because at the end of the day when I consider the world as it is today, Existentialism ideas can be found anywhere and everywhere. 

Maybe this blog is long and absurd, and you might think that it doesn't even make a valid point, but I had to express why this topic made me feel a little squirmy and uncomfortable. At the end of the day, it goes against what I spend everyday pursuing and believing in and is therefore a hard concept for me to handle. I felt the need to share some of my thoughts, even if they didn't make sense to everyone else.